i can be E V I L and
i can be S W E E T i'm not just anybody i'm me...
Monday, August 22, 2005
maybe i really think way too much
well.. haha.. did the thing that i have to do le.. hmm.. am feeling much better now.. but also kinda weird.. haha.. okie la.. cos like everything is just over and done with within afew mins.. everything ended very much peacefully.. am glad.. maybe is just that he is plain understanding bah.. felt so bad.. but i never regretted so.. cos things will be worst if i've decided to drag on.. why deprive someone's right to find someone perfect for himself right?? haha.. sounds as if i am a saint sia.. but nope.. all this happened becos i haven't been more sensible to think correctly and make right decisions.. and thank goodness that the right path was shown to me just in time.. thanks jas.. for reminding me of transparency to the leaders.. thanks bro bryan.. for showing me and guiding me.. for reminding me that i should only hold the heart of the Lord for the moment.. thank u really.. and sorry to the one whom i might have hurt.. but i believe that u won't regret that u let go to all this at this moment in time.. =) one thing to say.. haha.. we are still frens.. good buddies yeah... hmm... have been talking to jas something about karma.. think something liddat is going on.. i just pray hard and hope that this thing will just end here... don wan anyone else to get hurt or wadever cos of it.. ppl might think that i am nuts to have made such decision cos of my religion.. but hey.. everyone have the very right of making any decisions base on anything okie.. this is human right... we are actually all affected by the social norms.. the behaviour of the public and stuffs.. where we get the impression of big eyes, sharp noses, slim ladies are beautiful?? all this are becos of the way the public says.. if the public says yes.. are we just going to follow blindly?? isn't it time for us to make our own stand and stay firm to it?? so for this.. even though ppl might think that it is terribly outrageous that i forsake someone cos of my religion.. i am just doing so.. one of the comments of my facilitator struck my mind.. "Don't be a thermometer - be a thermostat!" this is really just wad we should do.. shouldn't we?? haha.. pretty cool that a rp facilitator can talk liddat sia.. It takes courage to be different or to stand up for something which others may not believe in... so shouldn't we start collecting the courage to do so from now onwards?? okie.. i think that some ppl might not be able to accept wad i am saying now.. but i am just trying to make my point of view here now.. okie la.. i also donno wad else to write now.. cos brain is pretty exhausted after saying so much things today.. so shall update again when necessary.. till next time yeah?? =)
Make ur Choice:
friendly/mean
evil/sweet
caring/bully
dull/unique
hardworking/lazy
strong/weak
brave/coward
blessed/jinx
My Blessings:
#01 lovely HDB to stay in
#02 loving darl EMAN to accompany me
#03 a crazy freaky sister to bully
#04 my parents own a stall that sells good food. yum YUM!
#05 ex-bf that made my relationship interesting
#06 dear girls sticking by me through all times
#07 YUZHEN! u are such a dear
#08 CHINGHUI(ah bu) thanks for all the shopping and k-box trips
#09 my ah bu family who accompany through my sec sch days
#10 my looks are OKAY. not handicapped.
#11 not a genious but brain functioning properly
#12 health OKAY!!!
#13 not being filthy rich but have enough to feed me
#14 met good enough bosses??? at least that gary still not that freaking evil
