Friday, September 09, 2005
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arh.. wth wth.. just saw a testi from ws... argh... sight of it made me.. ermx... omg.. why liddat why liddat.. argh.. so rude not to accept.. but its a torment to myself if i accept it.. wth.. hai.. nvm la.. let take it as a normal testi bah.. pls frens.. don wu hui.. nothing de arh.. and wth.. that is why i don like taking pics with guys.. end up having the pic online de.. damn it.. later ppl wu hui how.. argh.. pls arh.. save me from this tragic arh.. damn damn damn.. life is sooooo sucky.. =S hmm.. but okie la.. after knowing him i know alot of things.. haha.. things that ppl dream to know.. and this can be justify by zhen zhen.. wahaha.. we always share our resources of things around.. and this time.. this is a real treat for her de.. cos.. shh.. secret.. cannot say.. heex.. hmm.. went out with zhen zhen today.. k-box.. haha.. ask ah bu.. ah bu dao lor.. say wan to celebrate fren's bdae la.. ni hao.. next time u will get it from us.. =P hmm.. sand lots of songs today.. most of them are actually pieces sang by ppl who took part in the jue dui Superstar... haha.. then also donno why.. if i am not wrong the song 'Piano' should be a real saddies song right? but.. lol.. me and zhen sing till as if its a cherry song.. wahaha.. damn funny.. and we had real fun.. then guess wad.. such coincidence.. met the facial auntie in k-box too.. with her sis.. who is my ex-colleague in Giant hypermarket.. lol.. and their room is just beside ours.. lol.. then heard them singing those canto oldies.. weird weird de.. =P ha.. today went back to 77th street again.. wah.. thinking if i should buy that cap i have been eyeing lei.. but if buy.. like waste of money cos don think i will wear it.. wah.. sian.. headache sia.. hmm.. fan arh fan arh.. wo yao chuan bu guo qi le.. haha.. hmm.. ppl from JA composed a song.. but end up like a failure piece.. sound like malay pop song sia.. the tune and all.. eekks... all flat flat de... awful.. but nevertheless.. i enjoyed singing it.. haha.. cos its still singing la.. just that i cannot get the acccent of it right.. and that made them think that i made the verse i am supposed to take 'unique'.. lol.. total madness man.. find that the ppl there are real friendly.. though i chose to walk alone quietly.. but they will still gather round me and talk to me.. make me join in their conversation.. haha.. cool man.. and the guy max.. wah.. like can read ppl's mind de sia.. scary.. shouldn't talk to him too much.. if not all my thoughts will be read by him liao.. haha.. and that will be so uncool cos i enjoyed being secretive.. =P heard from fauzo that the Block A in Phoniex Park is really haunted.. as in... he can feel himself being watched if he is alone in the jammerz studio.. and room will go alittle dark at times when there is nothing blocking the light.. errie man.. and guess wad.. the hanging chanber of jails is actually located at that block too.. eekkss.. and in that block.. there are rooms where they have metal gates just before the doors de.. like hdb la.. have metal gate then the wooden doors.. eekkss.. and there are sealed and locked huge metal doors locking the rooms in Block A.. the overall... Block A is damn errie.. hai.. just wonder why we are having an ex-jail as a temporary sch campus.. tian li he zai arh.. luckily moving off soon le.. if not.. arh.. madness arh.. however.. its not going to keep me away from jamming in that block.. well.. at least i will get ppl to acc me in there la.. haha.. never alone.. trying to protect myself as i am having fun too.. =P wahaha... suddenly remembered something.. haha.. overheard someone's conversation on train today.. 3 frens talking.. and 1 guy is actually going to propose to his girlfren.. gheez... the way they talked make me excited too... heard them talk but diamonds.. and hmm.. they said that diamonds from Goldheart is the best.. that is super clear and shiny.. unlike Sk and Taka.. hahhaa.. then heard that Tiffany and Co. de ring design damn gorgeous blah blah.. then one of the frens asked if the guy have any crative ways of proposing.. all this.. haha.. made me have a werid feeling.. and wonder if my future husband is going to go through the same process before he is going to propose.. haha.. and how would he plan and all.. hmm.. seriously.. am looking forward to that very day.. but.. haha.. i won't just grab any guy on the streets de la.. i shall obey and be obedience and wait for TL to show me the one.. =) then.. i will have a happy marriage.. ha.. talking to ws yesterday.. he said he find that i am one who is looking for everlasting love.. LOL.. wth.. so fei hua sia.. who on earth would wan to have so many relationships?? its damn tiring de lor.. can u imagine.. u use ur heart to love someone.. in the end didn't work out.. have to take time to recover.. then love again and all.. this cycle is very tiring and painful lor.. who will wan to suffer so much u tell me? for me.. after a handful of unsuccessful relationship.. i really look forward to the last one.. and seriously hope that the very next one will be the last and forever one.. ha.. the last relationship did leave a deep impact on me.. maybe its becos its the 1st time i have loved someone so deeply bah.. ha.. zai de hen shen arh.. it's a deep cut indeed.. at times the wound will tear and bleed again.. but.. i know i can survive through de.. and i promised myself that i will pick myself up no matter wad.. i will be strong.. ha.. stronger than yesterday perhaps.. SDC.. ha.. shalll remember it always.. recently there is a show.. korean show.. 'innocent steps'.. ha... it reminded me of SDC.. dancing.. twirling and spinning.. maybe its cos of it that made it so special? who knows.. haha.. back from watching part of the 'baby blues' channel8 show.. ha.. indeed.. a family is never complete without a mum, a dad and a child.. ha.. like a jigsaw puzzle.. it cannot lack of even the smallest piece it has.. cos it would then make it incomplete and no matter how perfectly matched the other pieces are.. it is still not a perfect puzzle.. ha.. aiya.. also donno wad i am talking about.. have been emotionally hyper nowadays.. mood swings.. tiring to have it... a tiring day i am having indeed.. sometimes i just wonder how long can i go on with all this burden loading my small and vulnerable heart.. at times i really think that i am going to breakdown real soon.. i need a cure fast... a remedy to treat the illness i am having now.. to fight the irritating things that is haunting my soul.. disrupting the peace in me.. i must fight on.. ha... frens i need ur support.. really hope u all can be by me in times when i feel hopeless.. so ya.. ha.. save me from the person i've become... thanks yeah.. =)
`iSplashed
@ 8:52 PM
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