i can be E V I L and
i can be S W E E T i'm not just anybody i'm me...
Sunday, October 23, 2005
fine sunday
peeps... am back for entry... ha... well well... having nothing much to do... so here i am decided to make an entry... =S donno why feeling kinda down... ha... skipped service today as usual... dear me... also wonder why.. i just don wanna go church... no no no... no way... and there is the bros and sis from church wanting to meet me up... this is madness... like playing police and theif... they are trying to get me down... i can sense it... ha... bother bother bother... yesterday went for dental... well... my darl acc me there... am suppose to meet 10.45am?? but he is late la... can't blame... timing is kinda too early for him... and he has to wake by dawn at 3-4plus just for breakfast to last the day... ha... but as waiting for him yesterday just donno why... i suddenly feel like crying... ha... virgos easily despaired huh?? also can't find the reason for the sudden sad feeling... am afraid that he will not come afterall?? ha... well well.. but in the end he turned up... but kinda feel like crying still... just donno wad's the matter with me la... wadever... ha.. forget it... can see my darl i am very happy le.. am listening to grease soundtrack now... but donno why it can't make me happy... its such a fine weather sunny sunday... but here i am so gloomy having an internal storm... argh... even my booster grease cheery songs also can't help me now... ARGH!!!!!!! i feel like crying... but my tear ducts seemed to be blocked... xiang ku dan shi ku bu chu lai... HAO NAN SHOU ARH!!! THIS IS TOTALLY HORRID!! how i wish someone can appear and get me out of this right now... suddenly am wondering if its pms... one of the syndrome is gloomy and moody yea?? well well... donno la... feeling damn frustrated now... voice not working well too... singing like screeching.... argh... wad's happening??? losing my voice.. that's worst than doom's day... i hate it hate it hate it!!!!!!!! just can't stand it... here i am feeling so bad even with such joyful songs playing... wad's the matter with me??? feel so like banging my head against the wall... hit myself... argh..... so upside down now... ha... not a single soul online to talk this to... wondering wad are my dears and darl doinging now... having fun?? no mood to do anything.... force myself to smile.. but it got worst..... I WAN ALL THIS TO END ARH!!!!! torture... restless... i am going crazy... having such a deep frown on my forehead now... its yucky... it sux... blood boiling... also donno wad am i frustrated bout... wad's the reason??? wad wad wad!! wad isit?!? ha........ nvm... think i better get off my lappy now.. if not i think i will smash the keypads to pieces... no mood to blog on also.... =S =( ='(
Make ur Choice:
friendly/mean
evil/sweet
caring/bully
dull/unique
hardworking/lazy
strong/weak
brave/coward
blessed/jinx
My Blessings:
#01 lovely HDB to stay in
#02 loving darl EMAN to accompany me
#03 a crazy freaky sister to bully
#04 my parents own a stall that sells good food. yum YUM!
#05 ex-bf that made my relationship interesting
#06 dear girls sticking by me through all times
#07 YUZHEN! u are such a dear
#08 CHINGHUI(ah bu) thanks for all the shopping and k-box trips
#09 my ah bu family who accompany through my sec sch days
#10 my looks are OKAY. not handicapped.
#11 not a genious but brain functioning properly
#12 health OKAY!!!
#13 not being filthy rich but have enough to feed me
#14 met good enough bosses??? at least that gary still not that freaking evil