Wednesday, January 04, 2006
the time spent in sch
hi peeps... haha... guess u all know its my sch time still.. lol... well well... it can't get anymore boring... soooo... lol... came over to type alittle bit of crap... life in sch is so so so dead... esp without pals by my side... and my darl... ha... today he don have to go sch lor... is his break day... nvm.. next year i can enjoy it too.. its kinda like a priviledge for the upper 'polyians' in rp la... cos there may be some freaks and geeks who wanna opt for extra modules... so yea... cheers to them.. lazy ppl like us get to enjoy a lesser sch term... =P ha... wonders wad my darl is doing now... he have to sent his dad off to the airport today la... cos think his dad going for donno wad thingy... not that i donno... but i donno wad isit called... ha... think his dad will be away for quite sometime.. wonder how is his family going to survive liddat too... well well... darl is kinda worried but this trip that his dad is going... hope everything is going to be fine bah... haha... this sch term pretty short... next week am having holidays cos of haji... even if its just a day i also happy... wahaha... then open house that week also have 2days break... LOL... the happiest one of all... CNY holidays till 1st feb... not bad hor?? LOL.. this is going to be such a slack term la.. LOL... ha... thinking of that... means my year1 is ending le... ha... thinking back... i don seem to have done anything constructive... when the new sch term start will have to buck lo... cannot slack too much... will have to do PP... and alot of learning up on bio... ha... stress... new sch year starting means new campus... ha... won't get to go sch with darl le... no more train rides with him... ha.. its going to be such a boring route to sch on the train... the meeting him for only a short while in woodlands to take the bus to sch... ha.. lesser time with him le... no more ppl going to meet me at je to go sch together... no more ppl sending me to je on the way back home... ha... think there alot of things that are going to change once we move to the new campus... ha... new classes... ppl placed in different blks base on the courses they are taking.. ha... so going to miss yr1 pals... wonder if the new sch yr is going to be fine and easy to cope with... will the ppl be nice... will the work weigh me down.. so many things i am afraid might change... thinking back... the older u get... the more u will go worrying bout things in ur life... the older u get... the more u are afraid of losing the things around u... u start to cherish things more.. and this means that u will live in more grieve.. cos this world made such that nothing lasts forever... even friends and love ones... ppl die as time goes by... nothing lasts forever... nothing in this world... just simply hates it... well well.. lets stop talking bout all this.. if not i might end up crying in class... which i don wan it to happen ever... hmmm... am going to have a performance coming up in sch... this mth's 20plus??? ha... first performance?? kinda nervous bout it.. but will try to do my best.. ppl are all singing 2songs... think i have to come up with another song too... perhaps the song i am listening to now... haha... simple and nice... and its sweet... think ppl who are smart enough should be able to guess which song i am talking bout la.. haha.. shouldn't reveal it till i am confirm bout it... ha... spending almost an hr here typing away.. i still have another more hr to go before my third meeting... this is insane.. time passes so slowly when in sch... i wanna go home this very min... i wanna stay in my comfy bed... hang around with my frens... wonders how long do i have to be tied down by this education thingy... but straight after that.. i will be tied down by my job and career... then tied by family... ha... think there will never be once we will not be tied down... cos no matter wad.. ppl always get tied down... there is really no freedom in this world... till the very end... we are still tied by the rules we set for ourselves.. so... don ever say u are a free person.. even if u are someone with no rules... u are still tied down by ur own capabilities.. still tied down by wad this world offers u... ha... this is just insane... i donno why i am crapping all this... i donno wad am i doing... wad on earth is the meaning of life?? wad's the point when all these things are happening?? there are sadness more than happiness... fights more than peace... sufferings more than blessings... i believe that there is god... but why did he wans to create a place liddat?? wad is the purpose?? wad's the point? a place full of laws and restrictions.. full of agony and pain... full of selfishness and greed.. full of things that are ugly... its just a place that is imperfect... and why did the perfect god create such an imperfect place? wad is the meaning behind all this? i seriously donno.. and why do we have to do the right things to heaven? who deemed the things we are doing to be right? since god is perfect.. then why should there be imperfection in his eyes? nothing tallies in this world... nothing makes sense.. and everything i am typing here is just plain senseless... i am a senseless being... doing things senselessly... argh... think i am just crazy... being in sch makes me crazy... think i should stop.. stop typing.. ha.. i don wan to let myself type anymore horrible things... things that i find horrible and has no answers to it... till then...
`iSplashed
@ 12:34 PM
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